Hey everybody,
As I type this, I am literally bursting at the seams. It is 23 September 2021 and I have been given a conditional offer to study medicine at the University of Pretoria. I swell up with tears every time I repeat these words to myself. I am in shock and disbelief while also floating on a cloud of happiness. I feel like I have been enveloped by God's grace. A whole me? At University of Pretoria? Amazing! In an earlier blog post, I had indicated how UP was amongst my top 3 choices. I feel so privileged to be amongst those they have selected.
At the beginning of this year, I was in such an emotional space. I had spent a total of 8 years studying science and while I loved it, it just didn't feel enough. I imagined the next 10 years of my life being purely a research scientist and rather than exciting me, I found it daunting. I wanted to know more, do more and contribute to medical science at a level where I felt that I was being impactful to someone's life every day. I wanted to wake up everyday and feel that my actions were tangibly and visibly serving humanity. I believe research science is probably amongst the greatest services to humanity, but it takes a very long while to see and feel it. It is months ( more often years) of trying to understand a complex question, hoping to add one more piece to the puzzle of life. It's beautiful and very impactful. I just wanted more, and with this acceptance letter, I have that. I intended to still be involved in the sciences. I hope there will be a lab that will allow me to be involved in projects.
I am so happy! I am so eager to learn. To innovate. To make a difference. I can't wait to have a better understanding of human physiology and anatomy. I cannot afford this degree and I have absolutely no idea how I am going to make everything work. I will figure it out along the way.
If you have not received an offer yet, stay positive. A few weeks ago I was deflated as I thought I had received my first of many rejection letters. But here we are today! Do the best that you can at whatever you are currently doing. Don't give up just yet. Remember, most universities have not sent out offers yet AND people get offers starting from when matric results come out all the way through Feb/March depending on when the semester starts and how many people accept their offers.
If you have received any offers, I would love to hear how you are feeling. If you haven't, where have you applied and how are you managing the anxiety?
xxx
Sunny
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